Why is it that when people need something, they lie to get whatever it is they need, and then leave you hanging like you never mattered? She told me my little “family” was coming right back to my arms upon her return from vacation..only for her to lie blatantly to my face and go back with her ex. Like I didn’t even exist. How can someone do that? Say all these wonderful things to you and tell you they LOVE you..just to turn their back on you. I am so beyond scarred. I treated her with nothing less than respect and was nothing short of a gentleman. People tell me to get over it and just cherish life because you only have one and if you spend it being upset you didn’t live. Well that’s the thing..I TRIED TO LIVE. Only to be hurt. I’m in defense mode right now. How do I know someone won’t do that to me again? Almost as if I’m afraid to live..I cared way too much. I fell for whatever trap she put down. More than once. Because my stupid ass is the type of person who can be hurt so badly, but can still try to find the love in someone. I’ve never been so caught up in something like this. 😔💔

(Source: peepaveli, via livebyeveryw0rd)

Last night was the first time a child whom I love dearly fell asleep in my arms. I walked around carrying him until he slept. That may not sound like a big deal, but for him to be comfortable enough to fall asleep in my arms warms my heart. Too bad his mother loves someone else 😕